plugging along

 Felt a little intimidated this week, comparing myself to others.  They have lost more, less pain, seem to have more energy.  I've lost 12 lbs....and that's amazing, I'm doing the best I can....and when I try to do too much it backfires...as in more pain...or a day where I can barely get off the sofa.  So I'm going to quit comparing myself to others, just do as my body and my Dr. tells me and it will all be good in the end.

Progress

I think Friday was the lowest numbers ever registered on my fitbit...52 steps...I know in reality it was more, but I was walking bent over holding my abdomen.  But after seeing that number I decided to take action, on Saturday and Sunday I took a walk around the block, it hurt to bend over to put my sneakers on the my walk was in my slippers...but still I registered slightly over 1000 steps each day.

Today I actually got my sneakers on, still hurt to mash my belly while bending over, but it was bearable. I've been on my first walk around the block and getting ready to go again.  My goal is to be up to 3000 steps by 1 week post op.

I took some pictures in a sports bra and yoga pants....I don't think I'm ready to share those with the world, but they will be nice to compare to as I progress on this journey.

My follow up is Wednesday, I'm looking forward to not having to given myself a shot everyday and looking forward to getting the dressings off and staples out...it's starting to itch.

My weight was 219 , so officially that is down 8.

Surgery done, now to recover

I got to see Kaylee for a quick trip to NC 2 days before surgery......I will get to see her for about a week later in July....

 I definitely don't take good selfies....but surgery went without a hitch and I was home the next afternoon.  I'm fighting my husband hovering over me and trying to baby me...he thinks he is being helpful but really it's annoying me....don't get me wrong...I do not think I could of done this with him....but I'm just getting annoyed....probably just need to get out a bit.

I did go for a walk around the block this morning...it was already hot and humid at 9am.....I was happy to see my front door when I made it around the block.  My fitbit ad not been registering hardly any steps...even though I was walking around the house so I thought I would go on a real walk and get this healing going.  I really need to poop....did Miralax yesterday the only results I got was passing gas...which was OK but not what I really think I needed.  Did some more Miralax today...if nothing happens by this evening I'm going to add MoM (milk of magnesia ) to this mix....just hope that doesn't backfire (literally :-))

This is it

This is actually it in about 12 hours....but I'm pretty sure I won't have time to blog in the morning ....leaving the house at about 5:30 am.

After the first 2 days, the liquids were surprisingly easy.....I'm really hoping the next 2 weeks of post op liquids go as well.  I am feeling pretty anxious....I hope I can sleep.  After the thinking, researching, planning and preparing I feel like I'm ready....so when I wake up...this will be it.  I will have a good report on the other side.....and something to blog about.

Have a time to show up at the Hospital

Got my phone call from the hospital a little while ago, I have to be there by 6:30 am Tuesday morning June 17.  5 days from today....EEEK! and Yay!

The call was a little weird....asked me some questions I found a little strange...if I felt safe at home...if I've been abused....then of course all the medical history....that was expected.

So this is 4th day of my pre-op liquid diet, first 2 days were pretty rough but I'm doing fine now.  This weekend might be a little crazy, I leave Dallas at 7:20 to take my grandson to his Dad in NC...arrive in Raleigh Durham around 11 something...drive for a few hours to outside of Ft Bragg.....I plan on mostly holding my grand-daughter once I get there....because I will have to leave around 4 am to drive to Charlotte to fly back to Dallas.....the reason the flight arrangements are so crazy is because my husband works for American and it is a benefit....so when we fly for (almost) free...we go when there are empty seat...not when it works for us.....but schedule being out of whack....traveling...not having total control of my environment, not being able to bring the liquids I'm drinking with me is ....a little nerve whacking. 

9 days

But who is counting?....I AM!  Two days to start the liquid pre-op diet.  Am I ready?...I think so, although I think anxiety is starting to get to me...I've never had anxiety issues, so I'm not really sure, but I'm having trouble sleeping even though I take melatonin.  And if I have idle times, I feel like my heart is going 100mph.

  Next time I feel this way, I hope that it is weight that I'm losing!

I found this motivational picture....I like the message, so I'm posting it too.

I'm thinking that having a positive attitude will help with this whole journey.  

In the month of June my life will change

I can't believe this is the month for my surgery, the 17th day to be exact!  I've been doing research, preparing the best I can, I've let everyone know (I think).  I start my liquid diet June 10...that will be good because I've just been eating myself into complete misery.  My clothes are tight and look and feel terrible..but no since getting new ones.

So here is my new toy:

 It's the Aria scale (WiFi) by FitBit.  Before I was approved for the surgery there was no way in H-E double L that I would have wanted that number traveling through the WiFi.  The scale is still in the entryway and that is the reflection of the entryway light....but I'm getting in the habit of weighing regularly and the number goes directly to my FitBit dash board.  I need to move it to the bathroom....but I want my husband to be added as a user...right now he is resisting a bit.

I don't remember if I posted about this, but I also replaced my FitBit....I've been wearing it, but not really making an extra effort for more steps....just want to know what my average steps per week are now.  I want to be at that number by 1 week post op, then increase by maybe 1000 steps a day/week to get to the short term goal of 10,000 steps a day on most days.  In the past time and energy have kept me from my goals....not sure about time but I know energy will be much better.....I'm thinking time will be better too...hopefully I won't be spending time laying around being lazy because I have no energy that catch 22 that has plagued me for years.

I've been looking for cookbooks for Weight Loss Surgery....most specifically liquids and pureed/soft stages...I got three....but this is the one that will get me through those first stages.

  so I'm feeling ready now.

The chef has gone through weight loss surgery himself....and he really explains the difference between pureed, smooth, soft....the stage that last a month and I was not looking forward to at all.  I can't say I'm really looking forward to it now....but I feel like I'm more prepared.  According to the pre op meeting I went to...eating solid food before you are ready can really jack you up.

The count down begins...T minus 16 days